Saturday, February 29, 2020

Here I Go, Again!

OK, so it's not 2 years this time - instead it's almost 5, but here I am once again writing about a return to running.

Only this time it's not me considering a return, I'm actually back!

But let's back up a bit shall we?....

First, here's a not so brief recap of the past few years that have brought me to where I am today:

In July 2016, I began working 4 days a week for a decent boss at a job that I actually enjoyed. Not too long after that, I was able to give up the two extra days I had been working for other employers. So after 5 very long years, I was finally able to stop working the insane 6 day a week work schedule that I had been maintaining the majority of the time since I moved.

As my work stress levels began to slowly decrease, my overall well being began to improve and I started to have time to actually take care of myself. I began doing more things that I enjoy and even found time to begin volunteering at an animal shelter, where I became friends with a few of the other volunteers. Some of us eventually morphed into a group that we jokingly call 'the commune' and for the first time since relocating to Arizona, I feel like I have a sense of community and a real support system.

In January 2018, I joined Weight Watchers with my mom and managed to lose the majority of the extra weight I had been carrying around for way too long. I made it to my goal weight of 139 lbs and became a lifetime member. I managed to keep all the weight off for a while, but then I slowly let myself slide and gained some of it back.  However, this time I didn't let myself fall off the wagon completely and I am once again at my goal weight and maintaining it.  Of course, I'd still love to weigh a few lbs less than I do, but the older I get the harder it is to drop even a pound or two, so I'm content - at least for now!

In July 2019, I had the opportunity to change jobs to an office just a few miles from my house.  No longer having the 30-35 minute commute each way and being close enough that I can run home every day on my lunch hour for my four (I added two since I last blogged!) dogs, really had a huge impact on my schedule and opened up a lot of options for me.

Since I no longer had to rush home at the end of the day to let my dogs out, I decided to join a gym when I took the new job. I started off going right after work, but I knew I'd probably struggle with the motivation before too long.  So I also hired a personal trainer at the gym who I meet with once a week.  I have to admit that there were several weeks where that appointment was the only time I set foot in the gym.  However, as I started to move more I slowly started to see improvements in my overall well being and that motivated me to keep going.  I slowly increased my visits until I was going more often than not, which is where I am currently.

In December 2019, I read Rachel Hollis' book "Girl, Stop Apologizing" and something about it just really clicked with me and inspired me to start running on the treadmill at the gym.  I never really decided to run, I just started running.  One run, turned into two, turned into signing up for a 5K (that is coming up very soon on March 22) and downloading a C25K training program to get me going.  I then signed up to for a Virtual 5K in support of Animal Rescues, that I will be running in the near future.  And now I'm starting to eye longer races and wondering just how far I can go. I'm feeling hopeful because I've been running for more than 2 months and so far I haven't felt even a twinge from my old injuries, and I'm wondering if all the yoga I've done has made the difference.

I really feel like I have made a lot of changes for the better in recent years, especially when it comes to my need for perfectionism.  These days one of my mantras is "Progress, not perfection!"  It really helps keep me on track when I do have an off day or two.  I get back to where I want to be so much faster than I used to before.

All I can say for now is that I'm not exactly sure where this foray into running is going to end up.  I have no real goals or plans.  However, I do feel like I'm actually back, which wasn't the case with the previous two attempts.  So stay tuned because I have a feeling that there will at least be a few new race reports on the blog in the not too distant future!

Sunday, February 16, 2020

It's About Damn Time!

Today is a day 14 years in the making.

The proudest moment in my life was May 6, 2006 when I crossed the finish line of the Indianapolis Half Marathon. Not when I graduated from college. Not when I got accepted into optometry school. Not when I passed my board exams. Not when I got my Doctor of Optometry license. But when I crossed that freaking finish line.

Why?

Because training to run that half marathon was the hardest thing I have ever done. In. My. Entire. Life.

I’m sitting here with tears streaming down my face as I remember the feeling of that accomplishment. As I remember what it felt like to have just ran 13.1 miles. As I remember how strong and powerful I felt. As I remember how proud I was of myself.

I drew strength from that accomplishment for quite a while. But sadly, that source of strength eventually diminished until it almost became more a source of shame. Shame because I had to stop running due to an injury. Shame because I never accomplished my ultimate goal of completing a full marathon. Shame because I felt like a quitter.

BUT NOT ANY MORE.

Today is the day that I reclaim that sense of accomplishment. Today is the day that I remind myself that I am strong. I am powerful. I am capable. I can do hard things. Today. Yes, today is the day that I remind myself that I am a mother fucking bad ass!

Because once upon a time I RAN 13.1 FREAKING MILES!

And that’s a big deal.



Monday, September 14, 2015

Week in Review: 9/7/15 ~ 9/13/15

Monday
Evening Walk with the fur babies

Tuesday
Rest Day

Wednesday
90 min Bikram Yoga

Thursday
90 min Bikram Yoga

Friday
Walk with the fur babies

Saturday
Walk with the fur babies

Sunday
Rest Day

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Weight Loss Goal #2 -----> Success!

My second weight loss goal was to lose 10 lbs, and I'm so excited that I did it!

Thank You, South Beach!

I wasn't sure how long it would take me to reach this milestone, and I'm happy that it didn't take me as long as I expected.  When you hear someone talking about how much your metabolism slows down as you get older, believe them.  Seriously.

I have to work so hard these days to lose just a single pound.  Years ago I could drop a few pounds just by thinking about it.  But my trusty South Beach Diet hasn't let me down yet.  It's crazy how well I respond to it, which I supposed just goes to show that I really need to stay true to my no sugar eating habits.

My body and sugar are so not friends!

For my next goal, I'm going to concentrate on fitting back into a pair of jeans that I wore 6 years ago for some photos.  I was so depressed when I had to buy the jeans because I had gained weight and couldn't fit into any of the ones in my closet.  Six years later I'm working towards being able to fit back into them.  It's depressing how much I've let myself go the past 5 years.  I'm thrilled to finally be in a place where I can concentrate on making these changes for myself.  I'm not sure how much weight I'll need to lose to fit into the jeans, but my guess is 3-5 lbs.

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Double Digits Are Coming!

I've been watching our weather forecast like a hawk the past month, waiting for a break in our insane temperatures, and I'm excited to see that double digit temps are finally on their way!  This is definitely a new experience for me, as I really don't mind the Arizona summers all that much, but even I can admit that they are too hot to run in.

So, here's to cooler temps and attempted runs soon!


Thursday, September 10, 2015

Feeling Frustrated

Bikram Yoga is hard.  I know it, and expect it.  So, when I fall out of a pose due to poor balance or can't hold a pose the entire time due to muscle weakness, it might irritate me that my fitness level isn't what I want it to be but it doesn't specifically frustrate me.

What frustrates me is not being able to give the class my all due to external factors, and that has been the case the past two classes.  I don't know what is causing it but I've been finding myself struggling with the heat recently, and I've had to sit down several times because I'm feeling dizzy.  As a result, I'm not working as hard as I would like to be during the classes and I'm feeling very frustrated over it.

I need to figure out what is causing it and try to rectify it!  I did a little reading and found something that suggested it could be a sign of dehydration.  That would make sense because I did drink less water before the last few classes.  I'm going to make sure I get my 8 glasses of water in before class and see if it helps.  I keep half expecting to get sick, as that has always been the case in the past with my running.  I'd have several sucky runs in a row and then I'd end up getting sick a few days later.

Regardless, this seriously needs to stop!

Monday, September 7, 2015

Week In Review: 8/31/15 ~ 9/6/15

I'm still ironing out what I might want to include in my weekly exercise/health log, but until I figure it out I at least wanted to record my exercise for the week. Although, in doing so I realized I was a bit of the slacker.

Monday
Rest Day

Tuesday
Evening Walk with the fur babies

Wednesday
90 min Bikram Yoga

Thursday
Rest Day

Friday
60 min Bikram Yoga

Saturday
Rest Day

Sunday
90 min Bikram Yoga