Monday, September 14, 2015

Week in Review: 9/7/15 ~ 9/13/15

Evening Walk with the fur babies

Rest Day

90 min Bikram Yoga

90 min Bikram Yoga

Walk with the fur babies

Walk with the fur babies

Rest Day

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Double Digits Are Coming!

I've been watching our weather forecast like a hawk the past month, waiting for a break in our insane temperatures, and I'm excited to see that double digit temps are finally on their way!  This is definitely a new experience for me, as I really don't mind the Arizona summers all that much, but even I can admit that they are too hot to run in.

So, here's to cooler temps and attempted runs soon!

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Feeling Frustrated

Bikram Yoga is hard.  I know it, and expect it.  So, when I fall out of a pose due to poor balance or can't hold a pose the entire time due to muscle weakness, it might irritate me that my fitness level isn't what I want it to be but it doesn't specifically frustrate me.

What frustrates me is not being able to give the class my all due to external factors, and that has been the case the past two classes.  I don't know what is causing it but I've been finding myself struggling with the heat recently, and I've had to sit down several times because I'm feeling dizzy.  As a result, I'm not working as hard as I would like to be during the classes and I'm feeling very frustrated over it.

I need to figure out what is causing it and try to rectify it!  I did a little reading and found something that suggested it could be a sign of dehydration.  That would make sense because I did drink less water before the last few classes.  I'm going to make sure I get my 8 glasses of water in before class and see if it helps.  I keep half expecting to get sick, as that has always been the case in the past with my running.  I'd have several sucky runs in a row and then I'd end up getting sick a few days later.

Regardless, this seriously needs to stop!

Monday, September 7, 2015

Week In Review: 8/31/15 ~ 9/6/15

I'm still ironing out what I might want to include in my weekly exercise/health log, but until I figure it out I at least wanted to record my exercise for the week. Although, in doing so I realized I was a bit of the slacker.

Rest Day

Evening Walk with the fur babies

90 min Bikram Yoga

Rest Day

60 min Bikram Yoga

Rest Day

90 min Bikram Yoga

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Adios, August

It's hard to believe that September is here once again, and with it another birthday is right around the corner for me.  September has always felt like a time of new beginnings with back to school and my birthday falling so close together.  I always loved back to school time, with new school supplies and a new wardrobe and the promise of new things for the coming year.  And of course, my birthday always brought with it the same feeling of promise of good things to come for my next year.

Although I'm no longer in school, and haven't been for several years, I still find myself looking at this time of year as the time to set off on a new path and attempt to make some good changes in my life.  This year those changes are centered around my health and well being with this attempted return to running.  So, with that in mind, let's look back at August's goals and look ahead at what I have in mind for September.

First August...

My first goal was to drink eight glasses of water per day, and for the most part I succeeded.  I missed a few days during the month, but I tried not to let the slip ups derail me from my over all goal.  I don't know that I feel any different for the efforts, but I know it's important to be properly hydrated for running (and Bikram Yoga!) so I'm going to keep up my water drinking.

My next goal was to lose a few pounds, and I started off the month doing great but quickly fizzled out.  I gained back a few more of the pounds that I lost at the beginning of the month, but still ended the month 3 lbs less than I started it.  Not great, but any loss is good in my book.  So I end the month thankful for where I am, and refocus my attention and efforts so I can report another loss at the end of this month.

My third goal was to start building a community of online runners, and I'm still slowly working on that, as well.  I'm still diligently reading other's blogs and trying to find some runners who I feel like I 'click' with.  I haven't done much reaching out yet, as it seems silly to be connecting when I haven't really been running yet.

My final goal was to beginning running a few days a week.  I didn't run as much as I thought I would - mainly because of our temperatures.  I don't have access to any place to run inside and I wasn't realistic about just how hot it would be attempting to run in our triple digit temperatures.  But the temps are slowly dropping, so September should bring a few more days of attempted runs.

Now September...

I said I was going to reevaluate where I was after a month and decide if I was going to continue with my return to running.  I haven't done enough running to determine if my old aches and pains are going to allow me to resume running, but I do know that this past month has been good for me and I feel better than I have in a long time.  I'm slowly noticing changes in my body's abilities while walking and at yoga, and it feels good to be pushing my limits and feeling myself grow.  It also feels good to be concentrating my attention on my health again for the first time in several years.  So, regardless of if I end up running or not, for now I'm definitely going to continue on this journey.

I don't have any new goals for September in mind.  I really just want to continue with my efforts toward the goals I set in August.  The only thing I want to do differently is to figure out a better way to check in with how I am doing.  Right now I have several different apps and papers tracking my progress with different goals, and I'd like to combine everything into a single record on my blog.

And with that, all I can say is Bring on September!

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Pleasantly Surprised

I'm pretty freaking excited to report that last night's venture back to Bikram Yoga ended up being a very pleasant experience.

Well, as pleasant as Bikram Yoga can be.

I expected to get my butt kicked much worse than I did.  I'm not claiming it was easy, or that I didn't have to sit down a few times.  And I'm not even going to pretend that I didn't keep toppling over during the balancing poses.  But I didn't think I was about to die a single time, and for my first time back in 2 years, that's HUGE.

I was also pleasantly surprised by the other individuals in the class last night.  Hubby and I are going to the same yoga studio, and the same class time, as the last time we did Bikram.  Before there was a group of women there that seemed very cliquey, and very in shape, and very seasoned at Bikram.  Quite frankly, they were a bit intimidating.  This time all of the others in the class seemed more 'real' and a lot of them seemed like newbies.  It was a good vibe.  I'm hoping that is typical for the students who are now attending the class, as it is the one that works with our schedule.

I'm excited it turned out even better than expected, and I'm looking forward to our next class tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Still in Prep Mode

It's been almost a month since I first posted about considering a come back to running, and in some ways it feels like I've been dragging my feet about getting started, and perhaps I have been.  If I'm being totally honest about it, I have to admit that I'm scared.  I know that this is my last go at running. EVER.  If I can't find a way to run pain and injury free, I'm going to have to let it go for good.  And I really don't think I'm ready to face that possibility.  If I don't start, then I won't ever have to quit.

Yes, ridiculous, but it's where I am right now.

So perhaps I am being overly cautious and spending a ridiculous amount of time preparing to get started, but knowing that this is my last chance, I'm just trying to do everything I can to succeed.  It's like the quote "By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail."  If I don't properly prepare, I feel like I'm guaranteed to fail.  So, I'm sticking to my August Goals like glue as much as possible, and looking for other things I can do to prepare as well.

In that spirit, I've decided to start doing Bikram Yoga again.  Hubby and I found a really good deal on Groupon for 3 months worth of classes, and we are going to take our first class tonight.  I suspect I'll spend half the class sitting on the floor trying not to vomit, but I know it gets easier with each successive class.  I'm a huge believer in the benefits of yoga for runners.  I suppose Bikram isn't quite the same as other yoga, but something about the challenge of it resonates with me and I feel like it still provides the stretching and flexibility benefits that are the prefect balance to running. My goal is to do yoga 2-3 days a week, so we will see how it goes.

Now, if only our temperatures would drop and I could get back out there and do a little running.  I may be willing to do yoga in a sauna, but I'm not up for running when the temperature is over 100° F.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Week #3 Check In

Just a little recap of this week's attempts at my August goals...

Water: I had it in my head that I didn’t do so great with my water consumption at the beginning of the week, but it turns out I actually only missed on Monday. Probably because I spent my evening drinking wine instead of water. Oops.

Yay for being pleasantly surprised!

Weight Loss: Yikes about sums it up on the weight loss journey this week. Our anniversary was Monday and we went out to eat on Sunday night to celebrate, and then had pizza, wine, and movie night at home on Monday. Then of course, there were leftovers in the house for a few days. So, I really didn’t eat that great the first half of the week. I did get back on track and manage to repair some of the damage, but I’m still up 2 lbs from last week, with my overall total at 5.2 lbs lost.

But on a happy weight loss note, I did wear a shirt to work yesterday that I haven’t worn in a while because it is really long and felt too tight across my hips. The small amount of weight I have lost is just enough to make the shirt tolerable to wear again.

Small victories. It’s all about the small victories.

Community: I added a few more blogs to my blog roll again this week, and I’m definitely developing some favorite blogs to read. I’ve even started getting a few comments, which always bring a HUGE smile to my face. I really don’t know why I gave up blogging. I really do love it!

Running: I didn’t run at all this week. It’s still insanely hot here, and I just wasn’t up for it. So, my week was full of evening walks with my hubby and two sweet fur babies.

I did, however, spend a lot of time daydreaming about buying a treadmill and pondering where in my house I could find room to put it.

Instead of actually running, I spent some time preparing to run. (Which is equally important, right?) I went shopping and bought some athletic socks since I only owned 2 pair and every time I turn around they’re both in the laundry. I’ve also been doing some research about pool running. From what I’m reading it sounds like a great alternative that would be easier on the joints and much cooler during the hot Arizona summers where we spend at least 4 months in the triple digits. Not to mention the convenience factor, since I’m fortunate enough to have a pool in my backyard.

If anyone out there has any experience with pool running, I’d love to hear what you think about it!

Friday, August 21, 2015

Yup, It's Still Hot Here!

I truly love where I live for a million and one reasons, but the summer temps do make it a bit challenging to run without owning a treadmill or belonging to a gym.  At least we should be kissing the triple digits goodbye sometime next month.  In the mean time, I'll just embrace the sauna that I live in.

from inside.

with the A/C blasting.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Refusing to Fall Off the Weight Loss Wagon

Hello.  My name is runnergirl and my biggest fault is that I am a perfectionist.

But not in that clich├ęd way of attempting to turn what is usually seen as a positive into a negative when forced to respond to the common interview question, "What is your biggest weakness?"

I am a real perfectionist.

And it has been destroying my life.

OK. OK.  Destroying may be a bit of an exaggeration, but still.

When I set a goal for myself, my standards are ridiculously high and I'm unable to cut myself any slack.  I am my own worst enemy because of it and in the long run I end up sabotaging my efforts.

I find it next to impossible not to have an all-or-nothing attitude.  When I set a goal of doing something, like say drinking eight glasses of water every day in August, as soon as I miss a single day I end up thinking I may as well just quit because my goal was to drink the water EVERY DAY, and even one slip up renders my goal unreachable.  I can't help but see my attempt to reach a goal marred by failure when I slip up, and wondering why I should bother continuing.

Stepping back, I can obviously see how ridiculous this thinking is.  The real goal is to be healthier by consuming more water.  Even if I miss a few days out of the month, I'm still better off than I was when I started.  But even though I can logically think this through and see the bigger picture, I still have a hard time keeping myself on track as soon as I allow myself to miss one day of whatever I am trying to achieve.

I've missed a few days of drinking my water the past week or so, and I haven't exercised every day like I wanted to, AND I fell off the healthy eating/weight loss wagon for a few days while we celebrated our anniversary.  Normally this would be enough to derail me and I'd just give up, telling myself it was too late to succeed and I'll try again next month (which really turns into more like 6 months before I give it another go).  But I REFUSE to do that this time.  I really really want to get healthier and lose some weight and start running again.  So I'm fighting my internal perfectionist and plodding ahead, even with black marks on my record.  I can (and I will!) do this.

Here's to (eventually) losing those damn 10 lbs!